09.26.02
serendipity
I believe in fate, in destiny. That life serves you a series of seemingly unrelated events which weaves itself into an intricate tapestry, which when complete, reveals the full picture of where your life will lead.
I once cursed my luck at my ankle injuries. What kind of sick and twisted joke was played on me to remove me from the 'games of summer'? What I didn't understand was that maybe it was those same sick and twisted ideas that was forcing me to chill out and learn to really know myself.
And I learned that I'm over the pre-30 jitters of not having the so-called required life: married, homeowner, 2.5 kids and 2 new cars in the garage. I am happy just being me with my single friends who are also happy with me being me. I can be that person again who is fearless and takes chances. I can laugh not only with my mouth, but with my eyes and heart.
But is was almost a month ago where the intricate weavings of the tapestry started creating a picture for me. Had I not have been injured, I wouldn't have put my personals ad online. And Mike would not have found me. Had Mike not had found me, I would not have gotten nostalgic and attempted to get in touch with long lost friends from school. And I wouldn't have thought to get in touch with Colleen.
Colleen was a great friend of mine ever since we were on the same softball team in 7th grade. We never declared outselves as Best Friends, but we were always close and never gave into the petty girl disagreements that had succombed to me and my real Best Friend. It is because I got back in touch with her that I stared rereading my high school yearbook and saw what she and others had written to me 11 years ago. "Never lose who you are...you are one of the bravest people I know...brains, beauty and athletic - what once was jealousy has turned to respect" (seriously! someone wrote that!)
I don't know what this all means, yet. But there is an electric charge in the air. My hair is standing on end and I can feel something big is coming. Every weird twist of circumstance has gotten me here to today. Happy, almost healthy, and ready to get back into the game of my life. I'll just close my eyes, take a deep breath and roll the dice...
6:18 p.m.
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by Bill Bryson
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