12.19.01
sparkles
i'm haunted by my exes.
there's one in particular that came back into my head. i haven't thought about him in a long time, but he's back. maybe it's because his birthday's coming up. or maybe because i saw brad pitt on tv recently and brad always reminded me of him - at least when i first met him.
i haven't spoken to him in years. not because i didn't want to, but because i wasn't allowed to. that's another story.
but we were still friends. he helped me put my entertainment center together and put up my shower head. i cooked him dinner and we went out for drinks a few times.
i knew he still felt something for me, but i wasn't returning the sentiment. he once asked me about getting back together. i answered that it wouldn't work. you can't go back.
i wonder what he's doing now. did he clean himself up? is he still living in keyport? would i completely blow his mind if i contacted him? should i really even try to?
so many questions. and there really is no reason to get in touch with him other than to ease my curiousity. i made my peace with him over 5 years ago. i hurt him a long time ago. it would be very egotistical of me to think that he's still scared by it. but i wonder...
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