2001-01-17
ex-girlfriend
"i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend
i hope i hold a special place with the rest of them"
'ex-girlfriend' - no doubt
i met her on friday.
i hadn't seen j since he told me about her. i was heartbroken. i had turned psycho and did some things that i'm not so proud of. i wrote the ultimate desperate email and actually sent it.
three weeks went by without a response.
last week i got the response. he didn't love me. *surprise*. he hoped i didn't hate him.
friday came and j's band was playing their first major gig down the shore. it was time. i timed my entry perfect. they were already on stage. they were good.
after the first set i said my hellos to the rest of the band. then i got a tap on my shoulder. it was j.
after the first second of wierdness, it all went away. i was looking at my friend again. i was so proud of him. for the past year, this was the moment he was working for and now he got it.
he asked me if i wanted to meet her. she knew i was there and she wanted to meet me. how could i say no. besides, that was the reason i was there.
he brought me over to her and i introduced myself.
"hi, i'm c. nice to meet you. i've heard a lot of great things about you."
i think that shocked her for a second. but the meeting went well. she was cool. j was right, i'd like her - then i'd hate her because i liked her.
i stayed for the next 2 sets. they were really good! the only crappy part was watching j and e dance together in between sets. it was like looking at a bad car accident - you didn't want to look but you just HAD to.
i actually feel better. closure, i guess.
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